What if I began to make something of myself and change my attitude? Maybe it won't stick, but it will at least get me through this semester.
God, please help me stay positive. Amen.
END.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
But as for me, I still remember how it was before, and I am holding back the tears no more - I love you.
This song has nothing to do with what I'm feeling - I just happen to think it's incredibly beautiful and sad. I love it.
"Here Today," Paul McCartney
J and I went to the CanCan the other night. I thought I would want to write about it, but I don't. It was really nice. I guess that sums it up. Nothing incredible or spectacular; just a really nice evening.
In other news, I get painfully nervous when I have to play the piano in front of people. I guess that's how it is at first with anything. If you continue to get enough positive feedback and you perform enough times, it won't be as bad anymore. I can't just forget about the mistakes on the piano like I can on the horn, though. I'm not sure why that is. Maybe it's because I already feel as though it is pretentious for me to attempt the piano. I'm not particularly good at it, and I am afraid people will think that I think I'm good at it.
Does that make sense?
Either way, it makes me more nervous and I always end up sounding so terrible when I attempt to play. Trust me, I attempted it today and it was a mess.
I can't wait for the summer again. I feel frozen all the time, especially mentally. Finding the motivation to go outside for anything at all is nearly impossible these days. I am a creature of comfort and I thrive on warmth and softness. Nothing makes me sadder than to be cold and uncomfortable.
Come to think of it, it might be an obsession. I also enjoy clothes and I find little motivation to dress nicely during the winter, as well. I just want to stay in bed as long as possible and put on whatever I see first.
Departmentals are in 18 minutes. This was a horrible release of thought.
I apologize for the recklessness with which I wrote this.
END.
"Here Today," Paul McCartney
J and I went to the CanCan the other night. I thought I would want to write about it, but I don't. It was really nice. I guess that sums it up. Nothing incredible or spectacular; just a really nice evening.
In other news, I get painfully nervous when I have to play the piano in front of people. I guess that's how it is at first with anything. If you continue to get enough positive feedback and you perform enough times, it won't be as bad anymore. I can't just forget about the mistakes on the piano like I can on the horn, though. I'm not sure why that is. Maybe it's because I already feel as though it is pretentious for me to attempt the piano. I'm not particularly good at it, and I am afraid people will think that I think I'm good at it.
Does that make sense?
Either way, it makes me more nervous and I always end up sounding so terrible when I attempt to play. Trust me, I attempted it today and it was a mess.
I can't wait for the summer again. I feel frozen all the time, especially mentally. Finding the motivation to go outside for anything at all is nearly impossible these days. I am a creature of comfort and I thrive on warmth and softness. Nothing makes me sadder than to be cold and uncomfortable.
Come to think of it, it might be an obsession. I also enjoy clothes and I find little motivation to dress nicely during the winter, as well. I just want to stay in bed as long as possible and put on whatever I see first.
Departmentals are in 18 minutes. This was a horrible release of thought.
I apologize for the recklessness with which I wrote this.
END.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time.
Thank you, Julie Gaines, for getting that song stuck in my head!
Seriously, thank you.
I would like to express my excitement for the following: the CanCan tonight with J. Yes, people, we are splurging to celebrate not killing each other for the last two years. More importantly, we are splurging to enjoy really wonderful atmosphere, an excuse to dress up, and the best food we've had in a while. Okay, so those are things about which I happen to be excited - not so much him.
Either way, I look forward to taking in everything that happens to me this evening so I can write about it later (I hope). We'll see how inspiration strikes me, if it chooses to strike me at all.
END.
Seriously, thank you.
I would like to express my excitement for the following: the CanCan tonight with J. Yes, people, we are splurging to celebrate not killing each other for the last two years. More importantly, we are splurging to enjoy really wonderful atmosphere, an excuse to dress up, and the best food we've had in a while. Okay, so those are things about which I happen to be excited - not so much him.
Either way, I look forward to taking in everything that happens to me this evening so I can write about it later (I hope). We'll see how inspiration strikes me, if it chooses to strike me at all.
END.
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